My God. I kind of dropped of the planet and died for a while.

Hey look at that, I'm alive.

I can only say sorry. I have had, I'm still having honestly. Some stuff going on in my personal life and I was allowing that to affect what I was posting on here when I didn't want it to. I never had the intention to use this website as an anger dump, which is what I found myself doing.

I had gone and reread some of my posts and was very frustrated with myself and what I'd been posting, so I made myself take a break, and I made myself a promise to not post anything else like what I had been previously posting. Sadly it took over a year to get my head out of my own ass and stop wanting to write posts like I had been.

Now! Onto the more interesting things!! My jewelry making has taken a pretty hard dump, but I honestly was at the point that I was only doing it because I wanted to make money off it, so I shall probably stay away from that. For a while.

Now my writing! That I am very excited about. I have three W.I.P. At the moment, I'm referring to them as Project Yellow, Project Red, and Project Purple. Purple and yellow are meant to be duologies at least. P. Yellow was unplanned to be more than one book, I realized the end of book 1 didn't feel like a proper '[end' and felt far too open for my liking so I started putting into works the idea 0f book 2.

Downside this sort of upended some of the things I'd been previously working on with book 1, upside it's been really fun to find new twists and turns for book 1 to tie into book 2.

P. Red is coming along very nicely. I'm very excited that it has a working title I'm pretty happy with I'm thinking maybe 'Red Witch'. Though it's undecided. Red is definitely the one I will be talking about the most. P Purple is still in the early stages of writing though I'm so far happy with my outline and overall plot, the hard (but very fun) part starts now. The writing.

Project Red, is an idea I actually have struggled with for a few years. I first started writing it, I think six years ago. I have struggled a lot with it, I think the first real struggle I had was with what I wanted and what I wrote. It was night and day different.

I remember when I wrote the very first draft, it reminded me of a strange mix of harry potter (which I'd been rewatching) and Twilight. This was very weird because I only ever watched one of the movies when a friend, said were watching a movie sat me down, and put it on. I don't know which one it was I just remember being disturbed when the supposed super-hot love interest broke into the main character's room and watched her sleep.

Much creep, very disturbed.

Anyway, I rewrote it. And it was too similar to Vampire Academy, which I'd read the first book of. So I rewrote it again, and again, and again, and again, and you get the idea.

At this point, I'd been working on it for I want to say four years, I took A short break and went back to it. Hated it! And took about a year off from this project, and I worked on Project Yellow. I'm, very happy with this decision as I now have two fully drafted projects I'm very happy with, Project Yellow still needs work especially since I added another book into that plot line but otherwise I'm very happy with it.

I came back to Project Red, early this year and I finally have a first draft, that although needs work I'm happy with the overall draft it just needs refining.

The time it took me to work on this also helped me with a problem I was having with myself, and that was my unwillingness to commit to how dark I wanted to make the story. There were character deaths and creatures that I consciously wanted in the story but I could never get myself to commit and put them in the book, mostly I think because I was afraid of what people close to me would say, which I still fear from some people I know. I just don't plan on letting them be aware until I have put myself into a better living situation.

This is to say, I am in a much better place emotionally and plan to be posting much more.

Don't be afraid to write or act the way that feels most authentic to yourself, so long as it doesn't harm someone else. I will say fuck off if someone doesn't like what I like. But I'm also aware that can be difficult depending on who it is.